Continued from Part 5
Those who stay more in the subjective (by shifting into awareness) will have a different vibration. Those who are in the objective will have a different vibration. Subjective means one’s own presence. Objective means projecting to the things outside.
Their guru, god, diety, worship will always be outside is outside. Their meditation is outside.
Their everything is in their Yantra, in their Tantra, in their Mantra, in their Pooja, in their temple, church or mosque. Until you are objective, you cannot find that completeness you seek out there. The circuit has to complete after you hit that mirror and come back to yourself. Otherwise, everything outside is just like constantly running like the rabbit chasing the carrot in front, hoping…. now I will get it, now I will get it, now I will get it, now I will get it.
Mrigkasturi, the musk deer, constantly running in search of that fragrance, which it doesnt know is right within itself. A whole lifetime gone searching that fragrance desperately, but it never gets it. If it realizes, it will realise that it is in itSELF, the presence. The presence of the musk is where the presence of that fragrance is coming from. Where the grace, the healing is coming from. It is coming from its present, but until the musk stops and become present by becoming aware of its own presence, it cannot realize its own fragrance. It has to first stop running. That is called Nishchalta. Chanchalta is running, running, running, running, doing, doing, doing.
Doing this Pooja, that Havan, this scripture, that chant, this Yantra, that photo. If it stops, suddenly it will start getting its own fragrance. And the moment it smells its fragrance, it becomes aware of the satisfaction that it getting now. That is when it starts settling down.
Now what will happen to this musk deer? Once it gets its own fragrance, will it run now? That is what happens to us here. When you become aware, what happens? The musk deer is becoming aware of something precious here in the now. The moment you become aware, notice how your body doesn’t move. Your mind doesn’t move. You become Nishchala (still).
That is where you start settling down. But again, the fragrance from outside will disturb. A noise from outside will disturb. That is okay. Again you might run. But once you have tasted it, even once, now your effort will be to return to that space again and again. That is the final sadhna.
You are busy running to your office, taking care of my family and so busy in the world. That is perfectly fine for that is how you look forward to complete the experience called life. But now, once you get that fragrance, even though running, a desire will begin arising to return. You will now want to go repeatedly back to that space. That is how, though running, you will begin taking pauses. Though you will still be involved in the world, deep in your heart you will know it is not there.
The more aware you become, the more time you will begin finding in those gaps in daily life, where you can become self aware. The more you practice, the more you stabilize it. There are so many powerful tools I have provided here to help you shift easily, and even more to enjoy what you do and experience.
You must keep on doing it. The more you stabilize it, the more calm, the more patient, the more grace, the more energies, the more kriyas, the more saktipats….. everything starts happening from here. First you had believed that only after going to a person or place you can get shaktipat. That “I must go to some holy place, then only saktipat will happen.”
But now you see that you are becoming more and more aware and kriyas are happening, grace is emanating, energy is moving, some blissfulness is moving, something is happening within me. Who has activated it?
You! Because you are Parabhairava. Like what we discussed earlier. Kashmir Shavism explains how you are Parabhairava, generating your own shaktipat, own grace.
You have found where it is. You have found where the real master is. You have found where god is. Finding, the real source, your real worship now begins. You start having devotion to it. You start having love towards it. You start having respect towards it. You start having surrender towards it. And that becomes your sadhana. That is the shifting into awareness. The whole perspective has shifted.
You have found the guru or god that never vanishes, that has no attributes, or qualities, no form – the nirguna, nirakara (formless/attributeless). Here. You know where to approach. You have found your real ashram at last. You have found your real temple at last.
You begin returning to your temple, to your ashram, again and again. To meditate. To connect. To merge. To become one with it.
This is the reason why gurus or avatars come into existence. To make you realize this, and not to make you chase them. Outer guru always comes to activate your inner guru. Not to keep you away from your inner guru. Any guru that keeps you out, away from your inner guru cannot be a guru because that’s not the work of the guru.
That’s another worldly person only then. Because the worldly person keeps you away from yourself and keeps you invested in forms and delusions of samsara.
It is just another kind of the innumerable relations you have out in the world. Look at all the relationships that you have in the world. Do any of these relationships connect you back to yourself? Do they introduce you to yourself? Or do they keep you away from yourself, invested in their own vested interests and selfishness? Do they remind you of your life goal or fix you to their goals?
The right ones place re-direct you to your highest goal of human life and place the wandering you at the right place and leave. That is god functioning through the guru or messiah or avatar. The guru doesnt need anything from you to become complete. He is trying to make you complete by returning you to you, just like he has returned to himself.
This shift is where the whole transformation is. Shift into this sacred space of awareness and then do any practices. You will hit the bullseye.
You will begin moving to that source. The source is already awakened. You just have to settle there. That is how you empower yourself. You can empower yourself only when you decide to. If you don’t decide, no power on earth, not even your god or guru can do that. It’s completely on you.
When the time comes, your prarabdha will make you do it. Why do you think you are listening to this? You will listen only when the time is right. You can understand only when time is right, that is destiny playing itself out though events. Right events at the right time. Everything happens as per destiny only.
Without destiny, nothing happens. What is destiny? What is happening now is your destiny. Who has attracted it? You! Your karma has attracted it. It is you karma alone that makes you move ahead or stay where you are. Become more deeply aware of how these things work in life and you will start falling in love with that force that makes you do things, that guides you and protects you and leads you. But still must you stay for that. You must be present to sense it.
That is why Swami Lakshman Jhoo says, “You are parabhairava. You create your own Shaktipat. You create your own grace – if you want.” If you do not want, don’t worry, he says. Shiva will do it. The Shiva outside that you believe in, will do it. It means even your objective surrender will be taken care of. Shiva is inside and outside. Outside returns to inside. So, if you realise the sutra that the real sourse is inside, you will realise you are only that Parabhairava, but behaving as a different identity. If you cannot realise that, it is fine, you can project outside – to the Shiva outside of you. He will eventually return you back to where you ought to be. The more mature seekers go in. Those who are yet to realise go outward. Outward will slowly and eventually bring you inward itself.
Every worship, every ritual, every temple, every god, every concept, every guru, every master, every teaching, everything from outside is designed to bring you inside. Shiva has only given these concepts. Shiva clearly says in the Vigyan Bhairava Tantra, that he have only given the outside modalities also. When Parvati asks Shiva why were these outside modalities given when the truth is within, Shiva says because in the start the intellect is very dull (mandh buddhi or braanth buddhi). One cannot grasp his formless state (Parabhairava state). So, eventually with the outward practices, they will begin realising the original inward source.
So for them, Shiva has given lots of tantra. Shiva has only given mantra. Shiva has only given yantra. To catch hold of something. Because in these initial stages the mind of mind is busy grasping and holding on to the outside objects in the pursuit of peace and happiness. Unconsciously, he is seeking his real source and state only, but cannot understand it. It takes time to purify the intellect to be able to grasp the real.
When Parvati comes closer to Shiva, she is now able to hear and understand Shiva. It is at that time Shiva asks her to now give up all external practices because all of it has done its job. Now textbooks are not needed for you. You have enough wisdom. You can throw away your textbook.
You can throw away your concepts. For those, Shiva is only again telling you don’t need it. He says, give up all this now. That’s Shiva’s intelligence to get you to the real space.
He says this to Parvati. Why Parvati? Parvati has become mature. Parvati represents us. In the beginning, Parvati is not mature. So she has to be given tantra, yantra, mantra. So she is doing sadhna and tapas. You can see this all in the Arunachala Mahima from the Skanda Puranas. (Watch these videos)
Parvati does a lot of sadhana. Who is Parvati? You and me. We are the Shakti that has got separated from our self, Shiva. And we are doing these practice, these concepts. Shiva is only giving us this. Because we cannot directly grace our true Self with the mind, the mind that is full of delusions.
But, by the grace of that practice, when we grow, evolve, the inner Shiva within us, the inner Guru awakens in us the whole truth. Who is the inner Guru? Pure Awareness.
Pure awareness (Shiva) working through your purified intellect (guru). You are the mind here. Mind turns to a purified intellect. Which is what Bhagwan Nityananda is saying in Chidakasha Gita that the primary guru is your higher mind. Secondary guru is the one who initiates from outside to lead you to the inside. Slowly, as you realise this, you begin experimenting, by grace, and then you realise experientially, that yes, you can do without these objects also.
Then you get more confidence. The day you fully get confidence, you are able to throw out everything. Everything. Pure grace that is.
That is why in Devikallotara Shiva is asking Parvati to give up all gods and dieties, all meditations, kundalini practices, all chakra meditations, meditation on chakra petals and dieties sitting in the petals, give up holy dips in holy rivers, to give up all religious observances…. because now she does not need these props as she is mature enough to grasp that which is beyond all these concepts – Parabhairava.
If you deeply understand what is the real message of texts like Devikallotara or Vigyan Bhairav Tantra, then it has delivered it’s message. If not understood, then one needs to follow whatever one’s intellect is capable of. There is no force or insistence. Grace always gives clarity, timely. Follow your heart.
…. to be continued
|| Excerpts from Jake Light’s TALKS ON AWARENESS
From the Healing Series
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